Broadsided

Why is it when life kind of boardsides you, you know like a train crashing into you, there are no sound affects? There should be sound affects like in movies? There are no sound affects. Just the feeling in the pit of your stomach that it's all just bad and you hold in your hand the ugliest piece of life you have right now.

It will get better. I never E V E R say it cant get worse because sister I so know that it can get worse. But it sure as hell could get A LOT BETTER.... I am waiting for that.
And lets be clear on this I try I really do on a daily basis to make things better. I am looking for a part time job. I am doing all that I humanly can for Joseph but it seems a lot of people take vacations right now and I have to wait. and our insurance is about to change and I just have to hold on. I can see land I can see the shore, I know I can reach it, it's just a matter of riding out the waves past the jetty and then I can just float on in. I know this as sure as I know other things in life.
That is not to say that other things might now come crashing into me. Seems to many things have lately I am starting to take them in stride a bit better. Yet they still sting from time to time.