Say it

So some things have been on my mind. I have said all that I think about you. You have said some things about me I have read them. But what do others really say about me?
I know it shouldnt matter. You really should do whatever you want and not care what others say or think. Yet I find myself up on my high horse lamenting about how much my life stinks some times and how right I am ALL the TIME and how wrong YOU are. Pointing fingers at you. Rolling my eyes at how crazy I think you are.
Yet what do you say about me? About my kids? About my marriage? I know you dont say "Her kids are just delightful." or "Dont they have a great marriage" or "What a wonderful mother she is"
NO
I think I know what you might say. But maybe I am wrong.
I know what the tape in my head says.
I wonder what my mother in laws think of me?
This is NOT an invitation to bash me.
I guess I try pretty hard to get those things that you say about me to be "right" and yet I think I am so totally off the mark.