Rob wrote of his fears. And I will say that is pretty scary stuff. I would be out of my mind. OUT OF MY MIND with worry. What is wrong with some people in this world? Karma. Karma will slap them in the face.
I didnt do something at work the other day. Just gave a big fat sigh and said "No" it wasnt that I was "questioning authority" I just could not fit it in, wasnt going to do a half ass job of it and disrespect those that did a great job and spent a lot more time. My coworkers could not believe I wasnt going to do it, they told me I would be written up. I agreed. I would deserve it. I was accepting of that. They said "arent you scared?" and fear wasnt something that crossed my mind at all about that situation.
And I told them about fear, the young ones, life still so fresh and new, out of the wrapper. So much ahead of them. I too was like that at 19, 20 and 23.
But I am 36 now and I have seen and done things that have scared me. Sent my stomach churning, broke into a cold sweat. This was not to be one of those things. Things out of my control, I had to sit by and trust others with my childs life, my husbands life, that was fear. Those things scared me.
Not to jump on Rob's wagon but we too have feared seizures. Even small ones. Ones were Joseph might just space off for a bit. Or even big ones. Luckly it hasnt happen. And sometimes I worry, wonder what if it was to happen when someone else was watching him. Maybe that's why we havent left him much.
I have heard and read different things about seizures and CP. If he doesnt have them by 5 we're clear. And I have read they could happen at any time. I dont spend my days in fear, we are too busy for that. But it crosses my mind it's in there.
So if you want to be a jerk on the internet and use this as a platform to say mean things, much like you probably do in real life your that much of a jerk. Or feel the need to take the things I hold dear and value and call them stupid or threaten me or may family or even a dear friends family and think you'll be annonomous and have nothing better to do in your life then try and scare people. Just remember Karma will kick you in the ass. You may end up with too much on your plate in the future to deal with and you may not remember being a big ass jerk, oh but we will. It wont fill our days with these thougths we're too busy living but it will cross our minds.
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Get em Tamm. Makes me sick literally sick to my stomach. I seriously could do harm to people like that. All the anger I have pent up inside? All the emotions? Oh it would open up like the fourth of July. Sounds funny but I can really imagine it. It would be taking it out on someone who really deserves it and feeling good about letting them know it.
Jenn
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