What would YOU do?

She pressed it into my hand. She said "I am giving this to you" then she rolled my fingers up so I couldnt see what it was she was giving me.
"Do something for you! Dont pay a bill, I'll do that if you need me to. Dont buy groceries or anything for the kids. I'll do that too. Buy yourself some clothes, or go out with a friend or stash it for a rainny day."

My mind started spinning in a millon directions. What to do ? Yes I could get some clothes some shorts, some work pants no that would not be fun. I could stash it. I could go out to dinner. I could go out with Dominic.
I could stash it for my Lasik fund. I could take the boys to the movies or take Dominic. It felt like so much and yet it sort of felt like not enough.
It's been so many years of just getting by. Of never really having enough. Always scraping by. Splurges are few and far between and never feel like real splurges and when we do I always get a bad taste in my mouth afterward.

So I stashed it. It will sit. I will look at from time to time and make a list of what I want to do with it. I really, honestly think that is more satisfying.