Oh Yes Jane I am with you.

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Go read Jane.
I am with you Jane.
Oh God this was so true. I am about to crack at any moment for sure.
I waited. I had to wait. This is a non plastic Christmas. No credit. All Cash Christmas. So sometimes you have to wait till the dollars are there. So they are here now and well the gifts are gone. DAMN IT.
No Lighting McQueen Car which was so going to make this Christmas the best ever for Joseph.
No Dora Cash Register that was going to make this the best Christmas for me.... I mean for Joseph.
No Nintendo Wi for Derek.
So what do I do? Just buy crap gifts so they have something to open? No I say no. I say it No.
So I am wringing my hands, pulling out my hair searching for what clearly is NOT there. Last nigth Derek asked me if I believed in Santa and I closed my eyes real tight and said yes yes I did. That Santa would indeed just bring the Lighting McQueen car that was the answer. If every place on earth was SOLD out surely Santa would bring it. I got a bit loopy with delight at this obvious answer that was just staring me right in the face....except....well you know the answer to that dont you Virginia? There is no Santa. THERE IS NO SANTA! FOR THE LOVE OF GOD THERE IS NO SANTA!
So those impossible hard to find gifts are gone and there is NO Santa to bring them.
So I am stuck. Just stuck. I just dont know what to do now. Neither does my mom. Why she waited well I cant go there it makes me angry.
On top of this I have finals and my mother in law is coming to visit on Sunday so I have to clean the house and prepare for that.

If you're keeping track each boy has 8 gifts each total to be designated as from us, from Nana and from Santa. Thats it that's all. So that breaks down to 2 from Santa, 2 from Nana and 2 from Mommy and Daddy and a few stocking stuffers. I have tried really hard to really teach Joseph that it's Baby Jesus that we are celebrating. We had Derek ring the bell for Salvation Army and collect food for the local food bank. So I am hoping they get the true meaning of it all. But when the little darling from across the street says "I have the biggest present under the tree" in the smallest, tinest voice I have ever heard and ask "Why arent there any presents under YOUR tree?" I want to drop kick him I swear!
So I am grasping for the meaning of if it all and I am learning my lesson for sure.
So please Santa help a desperate mom out will ya? You can park the Lighting McQueen car in the garage we dont have a fireplace (Little Darling across the street pointed that out already. We dont have one he does. Nice. Thanks.)