Got that song in my head from OneRepublic Apologize. Not the Timbaland version (it's good but I prefer the original)
I’m holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I’m hearin what you say but I just can’t make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you’re sorry
Didn’t think I’d turn around, and say…
It’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I’d take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it’s nothin new
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it’s turning blue, and you say…
“Sorry” like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I’m afraid…
It’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I am tired. It's late. Rolling around my head this and that.
Homework down to the wire get it done. Reading to sleepy boys, Christmas music playing and they are out.
Men who won't stand up and do the right thing. Be pissed at your wife if you must but look at your children. Mail that isn't ours put in our mailbox. "Notice of default on loan" another neighbor in trouble. When does it stop? When does it end? How did this happen?
Gas prices crazy. Cost too much to heat our homes. Christmas presents I hope Santa brings. I am digging in and finishing this last year of school. Then I will work. And I will save and I will help those that helped me. Help those that I can and I will help US. For we have really sacrificed so much.
Sleep is calling. Warm blankets. Cold hubby will stumble in, dirty and cold but he worked and he worked hard enough for us. Thank God he's good like that. And he'll kiss the boys he missed tonight. And he'll wake in the morning and make them breakfast before school. He won't sleep in like he should. Like some men would. You just keep rolling. Forward. Move forward. Don't stop. Don't give up. They are counting on you to keep moving.
So sad mopey me from Sunday is better today. I am loved. I love. I am grateful. I am blessed. I wish my love and my blessings I could share with those that are not right now. But search for truth and honesty. Search for more than the dollar you need. Search for more than the immediate joy. Live in the moment. All of these woes will pass. In the very large grand scheme of it all, this life, right now is but a moment in the eternal life we will live right? Should not read the things I do so very late at night. Rev. Run, Carlos, Max. They make my head all loopy before bed. Surround yourself with great examples of great men, great women, great people. They will lead you to where you need to be. It's up to you to follow.
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