Thankful

Tonight I snuggled with my boys and we read. They went to sleep snuggled up together.
I am thankful tonight for all that I have. Wonderful sons. Good boys.
A wonderful mother who does a lot for me. Wonderful parents actually. They do a lot for us.
An amazing husband that words cannot even begin to describe how much he means to me.
Good people in my life that bring me joy and laughter.
A warm home. Food in my belly. A heater. Blankets. Milk in the frige. Socks on my feet. Hugs and kisses from the men that I love.
Life is not perfect. My life is far from perfect. Far from all that I want it to be but each day I am moving closer to what I want it to really be.

I know people are struggling now. Financially. With marriages coming undone. Health not the best. It feels like dark and troubled times in many ways. So I say this is when you reach out. This is when we all need each other the most. You can stay in the darkness of you sorrows (believe me I have indeed done that, faced it alone it's not a good idea) or reach out for the warmth of those that love you. And here's the thing, those that Love you might not always love you the way you want them to love you but they really do love you. They really do care about you. And remember we may not always get what we want...we get what we need. If you are hungry and cold and you get a blanket and some soup count your blessings and say Thank you. Do not complain that it is not a steak and a mink coat. Get what I am saying? If you have two cans of soup share one. If you have an extra blanket share that too. If you have a friend in troubled times share your ear, your arms for hugs. That is all you need to do.

I have been on a spiritual journey that really began after my grandmother passed. It was so hard for me to believe that she was gone. Today even I missed her so. She knew struggle. She had a life that was not always easy. But she knew she had love and yes maybe we all didn't always love her the way she might have wanted but I think at the end of the day, at the end of it all she knew we really all loved her.

I am thankful she was mine for as long as she was mine. I am thankful for all that she ever gave us. I am thankful for all that she taught me. I am thankful every tiny moment and I am thankful that I will be with her again someday. These struggles and sorrows here on earth are nothing compared to the glory and wonderful life that awaits us. I am thankful to finally have gotten that.