Monday, February 04, 2008

What would Grandma say?

Whenever you had a problem, large or small or if you were just a bit worried about something you could count on Grandma. She would always have some words of wisdom for you. Simple statements to put your heart at ease and after talking with her sometimes you'd feel a bit silly for being so worried to even begin with. Even if she was worried herself about it she would not let on to you that she was worried she would pat your hand and tell you it would work out, it would be ok.

I feel a little guilty lately I feel like I visit her a bit more often now than I ever did when she was alive. I drive by the cemetery on my way to school several days a week. I certainly don't stop everyday but I do think of her when I pass by and I have stopped several times since she has passed.
I hate that the weeds she use to dig out her lawn several mornings a week with a butter knife now grow on the very grass that grows above her. I told Dominic I am going out there with a butter knife and digging them out. He said the gardeners would take care of it and I don't need to walk around a cemetery holding a butter knife they might think I am crazy. I don't care I am smuggling one out. Anyway. Those times with Grandma are private and comforting and I sometime I can't believe how much I still miss her.
I have had some rough spots over the past oh I don't know 37 years and I have a wonderful support group of friends, family and my husband and I have always had my grandmother. While right now I am experiencing a very odd period of peace and calm (knock wood, knock wood) at least as peaceful and as calm as it gets for me. I know I am very much an exception these days. I wish grandma was here to help those struggling right now. But I hope they know she is still very much with us all and her words are still true. We are a strong family, her legacy lives on and no matter what the days ahead may hold for any of us, it's going to be alright you know that is what Grandma would say.

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