Just a lot of complaining.

I am NOT in a very good mood today. I am not in the best of moods.

Transitions are taking place here and over there, I am trying to find my spot.

The boys are liking school but having rough starts. It happens every year, it will be ok.

Dom is snippy, not at me just in my general direction and my nerves are too rough to handle it.

I can't seem to get my act together and I am really over that. I am over being a grown adult and having the amount that I do in my a bank account.

I am tired of CP being in our lives. Like that's going to change.

I am tired of mean people.

I am tired of negativity all around me.

(It's seeping out of me now!)

I would like a vacation. To go away from these walls and this town. To see something pretty. Do something different. To sleep in a bed that will be made while I am out. To eat in a restaurant with nice silverware. To let my worries go for a bit. I know they will be here when I get back.

Not going to happen any time soon but I feel a small crack and I just need to take a break. Not in my front yard and deal with your kids. Not in my back yard with ugly dead grass. Not a day at the beach because sometimes that is so much work to make it happen. Five years is a long time for a soul to go without a vacation. But it's not going to happen this year. Maybe a new house for us will help. Maybe new scenery that way will help. I would like to save money for a family get away but there is no money to save. It could be a few months before we find a home or move into a home so I need to find a way to shake this.

I need to find a way to get through nightly math drills with Derek, handwriting struggles with Joseph, reading and retainers battles, and a grumpy hubby. I need to find a way to get these classes done and get my certificate and then I think we could take a vacation. That is the goal and I just need to keep my eye on it.