I can't tell you how many times I have looked at this view over the past 5 years. It's the view from my kitchen table. It's not a view I love. That tree hasn't grown an inch the whole time or at least it seems that way. The fence jetting out like that has always bothered me. We haven't put a lot of time or money into this place. Planted a tree, moved some things around, but never painted, never really changed anything to make it ours. Always felt we were borrowing it. I suppose when it's all said and done there will be things I miss about this place. But today I am in love with the other house. It feels like it's waiting for us. This will have new renters soon enough. Maybe another baby will take his or her first steps in it like Joe did his. Maybe another family will sit in that kitchen and get a call that spins their world like we did. They will toast and cheer, and scream and cry in these walls. They might make friends with the neighbors (maybe not)
I looked out at the rain falling in the backyard with my cozy boys watching Spongebob just as we have done a million times and I am not sad, I am ready.
Today is a pajama day. It's a rainy very cold day and we don't have anything to do or any place to go. Plus my sleepy, exhausted boys slept until 11:30 this morning. I think they needed it. Busy days and late nights caught up with them so I let them sleep. Daddy couldn't believe when he called at 11:45 and found the boys had just rolled out of bed. He calls them sleepy chunks on days like this.
I have been thinking a lot these fresh new days of this new year. Thinking about where I would like to be at the end of 2009. What Dominic and I would like to accomplish in the coming year. Not too much looking back more looking forward.
More in the moment with these raindrops, my pajamas and my boys.