Who Wants to be a miilonaire.

I like to look at houses that are for sale on the internet. It's a torture I do to myself. I scream "THERE IS NO WAY I AM PAYING HALF A MILLON DOLLARS FOR THAT!!!" because to me no matter how you cut it you're going to go in to debt half a millon dollars. Yes you get equity blah blah but the fact is your buying something that cost half of a millon dollars. And maybe right now you can afford it but what if you lose your job or you or your spouse or your child gets sick can you still pay the bills? Life can change on a dime. I know that for sure.
For the past 5 years we have been in a constant state of change. We have many adjustments more so than the average person. It takes a toll on your mind, your wallet.
But I have hope. Some days it's a bucket full and swing it about and let some spill over th sides. Some days it's a pecious teaspoon full I hold out in front of me "see I have this tiny bit of hope right here" other times it's as small as pocket lint hidden in my pocket I will roll around between my finger and thumb over and over. Check my pocket over and over to make sure it's still there. But I have never totally lost it.
I can feel it building each day, I panic every now and then but I am beginning to really feel that all of these months we have worked and fought and hung on by our finger nails it might just be starting to slowly pay off.
Whatever happens I will not pay half a millon dollars for a house in a questionable part of town.